Feeling the Icky Love Stuff?

Either these videos will make you feel warm and fuzzy..or horribly alone...
Either way... ARGH.,.. so good

This took research ladies- you better enjoy every friggin moment- Welcome to my top ten love moments..

Penelope
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=If7yzsrEIEM

Jerry Mcguire
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-yOdPjvwtY

Serendipity
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dwnSmqr-9Wg

10 Things I hate about you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0SfVM3nIM9o

Brokeback Mountain
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KG87wwjvMMg

Love Actually
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5m2T5yfgsZ0

PS I Love You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bhl21PYdmqw

Grey's Anatomy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O9Swo1anaCE

The Notebook
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T9JTfU7YtGQ&feature=related

Romeo and Juliet
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kXNGr_DqiYs&feature=fvwrel



I've Been Absent...

I know I haven't been around too much lately- but honestly it is just because of busyness/lazyness.
I had a really crappy gym week where for some reason or another- I haven't had a chance to go all week and I think my level of happiness has been greatly affected unfortunately... I feel like a walking piece of flubber.. just heavy.. and sad and making noises like "whomp whompppp"- or maybe not that bad lol.. I just feel really "Meh" lol..

Tomorrow I am going to go hit the gym hard tho for sureeeeee... I am then going to go buy a little present for Peter before he deploys.. I'm getting him something to put on his dog tags.. nothing crazy.. Just has a verse on it that my dad used to have written on a pendant he used to wear... it says.
"May the lord watch between me and thee, when we are absent from one another."
I really like it.. and I think that he will.. suits the situation.

It sucks because every issue I have with him is strictly a maturity thing.. I really feel like they will fix themselves with time.

There are a lot of things I don't know.. especially with him leaving for a year.. but here is what I do know..
-I know that his love for me is true and strong and genuine..
-I know that there is no one else I would rather have sex with
-I know that his smile makes me melt
-I can't picture having babies with anyone else
-We have so much fun when we are together
-We have only had one fight that lasted more than 5 minutes while together.
-Thinking him being with anyone else makes we want to kill someone..

Just to name a few.. so... who knows where this year is going to take me.. take us rather..
Whether or not I will end up in his arms.. the arms of another.. or alone and happy.. I don't know..
I guess... stay tuned.. ? :$

C'est Ca.





SHOE-WORTHY WEDNESDAY!!!

I don't know what it is about this man.. the accent.. the eyes.... THE SEX.. I mean... what? Who said that?
He is hella fine and he is going to be in the new batman movie.. I pray he doesn't wear a mask...
The one and only...

TOM HARDY!!!



For Peter.

Poetry happened- I know I haven't written much recently- but I promise to catch up a bit this weekend.. I've just had a lot goin on. Please enjoy the "whomp whomp" poem I wrote today.

I am going to miss your face
For you I've created a space
A space that you are leaving
And I am left here grieving

Being with you is all I want
Out in the world, with our love to flaunt.
Making you smile, that sweet smile.
Getting lost in your eyes for a while.

Each day, the truth feels less like a dream.
Each day, each tear turns into a scream.
Knowing I'll have to go so long
Hoping that I can stay this strong.

Maybe if I close my eyes real tight.
Maybe I may, Maybe I might.
Be able to make you feel my heart beat.
Make you feel my touch, my heat.

Will this dark cloud ever let through light.
Since a sad fog has replaced my sight
When you get home, where will we be
Will it be the same, will you still love me

So many questions to ask, so little time
A whole year, such a big mountain to climb.
But I have some faith in my heart
Together at the end, alone to start.



SHOE-WORTHY WEDNESDAY!!!

Ok... my lovely friend Jennie at work has been asking me to do this man for atleast a month..

YOU PERVS.. not do!? Like... dooo for Shoe-worthy Wednesday... Gawd.. such pigs read my blog!?
I have to admit this guy is HELLA fine. That smile.. Those eyes... THOSE DAMN CHEEKBONES.. all kinds of sexy.. you could bounce a dime off that face... Ok that doesn't make sense.. but you get what I'm saying...
you are welcome ladies... Please meet..

JENSEN ACKLES!!!

(Who does this resemble Rebecca? Hmmmmm?)

So today... then tonight!.. Ok.. I may be drunk..

Ok so listen ..lol
This may be my first post where I am a bit tipsey... HOWEVER.. rest assured.. it will only impact my spelling.. and not the fabulous content.. atleast I hope

I'm sitting here eating my regular night time snack- english muffin with peanut butter melted in the microwave.. wondering.. how if I always heat it for 25 seconds and it comes out perfect.. that this time.. it came out too hot for me too even touch?
Conclusion- either I'm so drunk that I put it in for too long... orrr.. I'm so drunk that it feel hotter than it actually is? Either way?? not good Emily.. not good..And  I know what u are thinking.. you are thinking.. Did Emily just say that the english muffin is not good and people.. no... no I did not.. I said not good as in the situation I am innnnn.. is not good.. following? ok

So I just wanted to say I had a fantastic day.. I went to the gym this morning.. 45 minutes cardio again.. however... felt kinda off today and.. nauscious? but I made it through..

Then got 2 awards today at work? Which made me feel super special? Why did I get awards? Ummmm because I'm awesome..

Thennnnn paid off what is left on my car loan so remember my goal was 5k to pay down in the year.. so.. now i'm at...approximately 2.4k- this goal may be easier than I thought?!

I also went out tonight with my friend Leesa to Gracies... my favourite place on a tuesday.. It had a rough start tho.. we were sitting in a booth and a bunch of girls sat int he booth right next to us.. and I looked over at a moment where I blatently caught them talking about me.. you know how that is.. the whisper whisper whisper.. head turn... look you up and down moment... and it obviously wasn't a nice... comment being shared? the girl was laughing as she was saying it.. and.. I felt myself revert back to a very.. insecure side of myself... that somehow came to be in highschool.. remember .. Sophie.. WHY WON'T SHE DIE!? Anyways.. I instantly felt really awkward.. and upset.. and I hated it.. so I insisted that we move.. I wanted to dance.. burn some calories you know?!

So Leesa stood with me while I danced my ass off.. and I looked to the left of me to see a group of girls.. and one of them grabbed the other and pointed at me.. and I was like.. in my head "really? Again... ? is this even necessary?" And the girl that had pointed at me.. I think kind of saw me see them talking and grabbed my arm.. and said in my ear... and I quote " I was just telling my friend how you have the most beautiful body I have ever seen on a woman. Like honestly, it is amazing... you bitch!" - I'm honestly.... speechless...I can't remember the last time someone said something like this too me... I wanted to cry.. I said thank you so much and continued dancing.. but just a little bit harder.. I felt like I was instantly just excuding confidence..

Now with that said.. do I want to rely on such comments to make me feel good? No.. but you know what.. I have been working my ass off.. and it felt nice to be noticed.. especially by a girl because she has no secret agenda in saying that.. honestly..like made my.. month... Just typing it now makes me speechless.. I can't explain how good it felt.. I know this is a lot of cheese.. u might as well call me Miss Havarti Chedder' Provolone- gotta hyphonate... otherwise that shit aint right? Yaaa mean?

Anyways.. thats really all I had to say.. its late.. Iw ork tomorrow.. you know the deal...
C'est "Tear" Ca :)



First Weigh In..

So.. I'm weighing myself every friday.. and I really thought I should start sharing the results so you guys are up to date on my progress :) or my lack there of..lol No.. but honestly so far I am doing pretty well... so this is your first official...

WEIGH IN!!!

DUN DUN DUNNNNNNNN

ORIGINAL WEIGHT- 182

FRIDAY- FEBRUARY 11th- 172.2

So there you have it... 10 pounds.. Gone..

However... I'm still about 17 pounds away from my goal...

The most annoying thing.. is I really felt like 10 pounds of weight less was going to be a lot more noticable... but no one seems to notice.. I'm trying not to let it be discouraging.. because at the end of the say I feel a difference.. and I know that is what is important.. But at the same time when someone does notice.. it really helps boost my motivation.. but honestly no one seems to notice.. oh well.. I'm going to keep plugging away... sticking with my "kicking it up a notch each week" This week.. I'm going to be trying to get to the gym atleast an hour and a half before work.. instead of just an hour... leaving 40-45 minutes for cardio.. and the rest of the time for weights.

                                 

ALSO- after I get my bonus.. as I mentioned before.. I'm going to sign up for some kind of weekly class either in dance or kick-boxing.. I'm really having a hard time deciding.. which I want to take :$ I know kick bowing would probably give me the results i"m looking for.. and would help boost my confident.. but salsa dancing etc would probably do the same.. and I love dancing.. I don't know.. we will have to see...

I honestly... can't wait for this bonus.. its really going to help my money situation.. It really is amazing how you can think you are in such a bind one month but then somehow.. things have a way of working themselves out sometimes ya know? Basically, what I'm saying is... Keep your head up.. lemons= lemonaide.. that whole jazz..:P

           

Also.. I've really decided that I want to look into organizing this walk for cancer for my dad that I have always wanted to do.. I got some really good ideas in the car ride home from the states today.. As far as like.. what kind of walk/run.. I'm looking to organize.. and what it would set it apart from what is out there right now..

Three things that keep coming back into my mind when I think about it are "Cancer touched my heart." - "Put a face to the fight" and "Face the Fight". I think I like the last one the most.. and basically my general idea is that I want to organize a 5-10km walk/run/bike/rollerblade etc. But I feel with all of the causes out there.. that I want to personalize it.. Take it back to the reason why we all care about these diseases and finding a cure.. and that is because of how it has effected and could effect those we love...or ourselves. Cancer effects more people than any disease. I lost the most wonderful.. amazing father because of it.. and .. I don't want anyone else to go through the same thing. It makes me angry that something that has a possible cure took my father away from me... caused there to be such a hole in my life. But like my dad used to always say.. that which does not kill us.. makes us stronger.. And it has made me stronger. But since he can't be here to fight for a cure.. I want to do it for him..

So the idea behind "Face the Fight".. is putting a face to the fight.. I want to set up a website where people can send in a picture of their loved one that was effected by cancer -with whatever the acceptable minimal donation would be.. and on the day of the walk.. have a tshirt for them to wear with that picture of their loved one on the back of it to symbolize the who they are walking for..or how cancer impacted their lives.. thier reason to "face the fight".  And if someone just wants to participate, without that.. It would be a picture of my dad, because I would be doing the donation/ walk in his name.

I really think that it is a good.. originial idea.. and possible?

There would be a lot of planning involved in it.. but nothing I don't think I am capable of..

Whether or not you believe in heaven.. if there is even the slightest chance that my Dad could see that I did something like this.. it would make him so unbelievably proud.. and that slight chance is worth it to me.. So.. I'm going to start looking into it.. emailing the Ontario Cancer Society to see how I set something like this up... Let me know what you think..

Love you All.. c'est ca

SHOE-WORTHY WEDNESDAY!!!

I know you all thought that I forgot..
Oh.. but I didn't...
This guy makes something happen to my lady parts.. too much detail? DO I CARE? No.. because it's true. I hope he does the same to you.. because DAMN he be fine...The sexy... amazing.. new Thor...

Chris Hemsworth!!!