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Thursday, December 23, 2010
Last Day Of Work..
So today is my last day of work before I am off for the holidays until the 4th of January.. AMAZING?!
As you can see from my lack of posting.. I'm trying to finish up some things at the work place before I'm off for the holidays.
I am having a very hopeful week.. I have to say.. I have some of the sweetest friends ever.. I really feel like I was able to make some friendships and.. strengthen some relationships that are really going to be vital to my happiness in the future. these days, it is hard to find friends, especially girlfriends worth keeping.. but I really feel blessed for the ones I have.. Merry Christmas to me :)
I'm really looking forward to Christmas and the New Year.. Feels like a fresh start in so many ways... however in a lot of ways makes me realize more things that I wish I would have accomplished that I didn't for whatever reason.. But this year.. Things are happening.. On top of my list are 2 things...
1. Get Healthy and Fit
(Specifically, I want to lose 25-30 pounds before Summer..)
2. SAVEMONEY!
(Specifically, I am determined to pay back at least 5k of debt in 2011
These two are really important to me because a lot of unhappiness I feel on a daily basis can be related back to these two issues. There are a bunch of other items that I want to do in 2011 some small.. some that are also really important to me... THEY ALL WILL HAPPEN. 2011 is the year of me.. I'm determined.
Here are the rest...
3. Stay Clean- not just apartment, car too.
4. Volunteer with an animal shelter.
5. Determine what I want to take in school.
6. Sing in public.
7. Take up a hobby that involves being physically active.
8. Get Peso's teeth cleaned.
9. Find Love for Myself.
10. Do things I've never done before.
I think I will stick with 10.. because i don't want to overwhelm myself. But I hope this blog will hold me accountable for these goals and completing them. Again, I'm really excited for 2011 and what it holds for me..
You may have noticed.. I didn't mention finding a man in this because.. I really feel like, that will happen when it is supposed to happen.. This year is about me and what makes me happy, and if a man happens to fit into that scenario then so be it.. if not.. instead of stressing about it... I'm going to live my life to the fullest instead.
C'est Ca.
As you can see from my lack of posting.. I'm trying to finish up some things at the work place before I'm off for the holidays.
I am having a very hopeful week.. I have to say.. I have some of the sweetest friends ever.. I really feel like I was able to make some friendships and.. strengthen some relationships that are really going to be vital to my happiness in the future. these days, it is hard to find friends, especially girlfriends worth keeping.. but I really feel blessed for the ones I have.. Merry Christmas to me :)
I'm really looking forward to Christmas and the New Year.. Feels like a fresh start in so many ways... however in a lot of ways makes me realize more things that I wish I would have accomplished that I didn't for whatever reason.. But this year.. Things are happening.. On top of my list are 2 things...
1. Get Healthy and Fit
(Specifically, I want to lose 25-30 pounds before Summer..)
2. SAVEMONEY!
(Specifically, I am determined to pay back at least 5k of debt in 2011
These two are really important to me because a lot of unhappiness I feel on a daily basis can be related back to these two issues. There are a bunch of other items that I want to do in 2011 some small.. some that are also really important to me... THEY ALL WILL HAPPEN. 2011 is the year of me.. I'm determined.
Here are the rest...
3. Stay Clean- not just apartment, car too.
4. Volunteer with an animal shelter.
5. Determine what I want to take in school.
6. Sing in public.
7. Take up a hobby that involves being physically active.
8. Get Peso's teeth cleaned.
9. Find Love for Myself.
10. Do things I've never done before.
I think I will stick with 10.. because i don't want to overwhelm myself. But I hope this blog will hold me accountable for these goals and completing them. Again, I'm really excited for 2011 and what it holds for me..
You may have noticed.. I didn't mention finding a man in this because.. I really feel like, that will happen when it is supposed to happen.. This year is about me and what makes me happy, and if a man happens to fit into that scenario then so be it.. if not.. instead of stressing about it... I'm going to live my life to the fullest instead.
C'est Ca.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
SHOE-WORTHY WEDNESDAY!
Monday, December 20, 2010
Everybody Wants To Love.. Including Cocaine Users.
So.. SO... You people out there.. in this beautiful world.. have no idea what I went through this weekend.. WHOA.. Take a moment... Take a breathe.. and prepare yourself for the crazy story I am about to tell.
I find these last two years have been a period in my life where I have experiences a lot of firsts.. First place on my own.. first car accident.. first worst sex experience.. first decline for a credit card.. etc etc etc.. Well this weekend my friends.. was yet another first.. and not a good one. I had by far... the worst date... of my whole life.. And I am going to tell this story in all of its truth.. I will hide nothing. At the end of it.. I take a lot of blame for it considering.. I kind of reverted back to the old Emily for 24hrs who really is too forgiving and too generous. I thought I locked this Emily in a cage at the back of my brain.. because.. she can not be trusted, she is stupid and naive and too generous etc.. She is really irritating.. I don't like her to come out. But you have to understand if you had that one crush from high school that you see years later and that person somehow breaks free.. and you have to follow through for that inner person inside yourself. Especially for me who was a hot mess in high school and didn't have a lot of boys who liked me back. So this is your preparation for this story..
So... a few weeks ago I ran into this guy in my home town that I had a huge crush on back in the day.. and
My inner Emily escaped.. for the sake of this story.. because I really don't feel like I was myself for the time I conversed with this person, I'm going to refer to my inner self as Sophie - why Sophie.. because it sounds like the sweet, naive kind of name that really suits how I feel about my inner self. NOT KNOCKING THAT NAME- just saying feels like it suits this story.
So we started talking.. Sophie and the Crush spoke for like.. 2 weeks.. Great convos.. but this person is really not someone I would usually even take a second look at. My mother... WOULD FREAK.. if I brought him this person.
1. Has 2 Kids
2. Never graduated high school
3. Has 2 bench warrants for his arrest- not one... TWO.
4. An ex baby mama of 8 yrs. with a LOT of baby mama dramz.
4. Is currently sleeping on his aunt's couch.
5. Jobless
JUST TO NAME A FEW.. but sometimes your heart sees past these kind of things.. Which is really ridiculous because you know what people.. at the end of the day.. Your Head is what has eyes attached.. not your heart... Not that I don't believe in lurveeee but.. shiz has got to make sense before you jump into something.. and obviously.. this guy.. is not making sense.. Right? right..
So.. We had been talking for 2 weeks about him coming into town this weekend and us hanging out (well he was supposed to come last weekend but couldn't come for family reasons)- so he told me that he was coming up Thursday to see his kids and that as of Friday night- I could have him all weekend. I was super excited- I prepared myself.. With delicious food.. and I looked fab etc. On Friday.. I went for a massage (delicious) at 3pm and then went to the mall to finish my Christmas Shopping.. As I'm shopping.. I'm wondering, when exactly he is going to call me since its about 5:30 at this point.. and it is funny how every person has a different definition of what "night" is- so as of Friday night he will be mine.. what is night exactly.. you know? Anyways, so I go get some Christmas cards and as I'm leaving the store.. I walk literally right into him.. FATE NO?....... NO!... It was the Devil.. I wish I never would have ran into him.. I really do..
He turned around with a big smile on his face.. and asked me what I was doing there.. making convo etc.. and he was with a friend. Then he says he has been drinking.. and shows me the beer can in his pocket.. so at this point I'm wondering.. if I had ever ran into him just now.. do you think I would have ever heard from him? Anyways..
He is there with a friend.. the brother of the Baby Mama.. and it becomes quickly evident.. that my crush wants to hang out with me.. but the friend is being a stage 5 clinger to his friend and also wants to come. So I settle figuring.. I have him for the whole weekend.. I'm sure he hasn't seen his friend in a while.. I can hang out with them both.. whatever who cares.. so then..I bring them to my place for some drinks.. Since I had bought his favourite alcohol.. argh... Damn Sophie. They drink it all and then the friend all of a sudden wants to go on a rode trip to brockville.. which I'm not really feeling.. but they say that one of their friends is having friends over or something.. so I'm like fine whatever. And he gives me gas money. As we are driving to brockville.. the friend begins to open the back door of my car as I'm going 120k and puking out the side of my car. I end up pulling over on the side of the road.. he pukes more.. and pees.. then back in the car.. and vomits again.. Amazing..
We get to brockville.. we go to some guys house that I know because he used to check me out when I would get take out from Swiss Chalet.. and his girlfriend used to go to my church. And they call over some other friend. And maybe I'm slow or something.. or again.. it was Sophie.. So naive.. but they sit down on the couch with this friend talking about something.. and I assume they are buying weed. And then start trying to come up with a $100... and I'm like..t hats pretty expensive for weed... lol And then the guy pulls out a little baggy of white powder... and honestly.. even typing this.. my arms get all stiff because.. I have a serious drug phobia.. like its bad.. and I had never seen that stuff in person before.. it was terrifying.. and the vomiting friend.. grabs the bag and runs off to the basement.. and at this moment.. I am honestly speechless and paralyzed .. my crush talks a bit more with the guy and then goes downstairs.. and I swear I opened my mouth to tell him no.. but nothing came out I was too freaked out..
I sat there.. they came back up.. blatantly tripping out.. grinding their teeth etc.. I sat there.. texting friends on my phone trying to relax and.. almost in tears.. And most people are like.. why didn't you just leave.. but I didn't leave because.. they had no way back.. I felt obligated.. stupid.. but true..They go back down.. do it again.. and then I wait until they are ready to go... and we drive back.. The whole time.. with the friend tripping his shit out in the back seat. Tried to start.. cutting up.. or whatever.. what he had left in my backseat.. I freaked out on him.. told about my drug phobia.. where they both instantly apologized like crazy.
We drive back to Ottawa.. and they ask to go by one more friends house who my crush hasn't seen in a long time.. I say fine.. Go there.. As soon as the committing friends butt hits the couch he whips out what he has left in his little baggy.. I ask him to go in the other room.. and they all go in there AGAIN and do that.. I watch everyone trip out for like an hour..not even an hour.. and the vomiting friend starts freaking out wanting more. Says he can get some in Vanier.. (The Ghetto..) and since I refuse to drive him.. leaves and goes to walk there in nothing but a t shirt in the middle of winter (and that shit wasn't close) - so my crush begs me just to go pick him up and drive him and I give in because.. of Sophie.. and because i felt bad for the guy..
I drive them to Vanier.. he tells me to wait in the car with it off... I get to 45 minutes of waiting before my toes get numb from the cold and turn my car on.. I wait for an hour and 15 minutes.. before they come back.. get in the car.. go back to the other friends house.. My crush stays with me while the other two go do more.. We finally leave.. withoutttt the vomiting friend and go to my house. Where you know what.. I let Sophie free to enjoy the boy.. Because at the end of the day.. I realized that all that really interested me ever in that person was the shell.. and.. after the night I had.. it felt good to feel safe..and intimate with someone ya know? Having someone hold you and kiss you.. after being honestly traumatized. And then the next day.. I drive him out to the friends house.. because apparently his kids were there.. again .. I was supposed to have him the whole weekend but at this point.. I didn't really care... He promised to call me the next day to go with me to a birthday party.. but I knew he wouldn't call.. I was actually praying he wouldn't.. Because it really would be like beating a dead horse.. and I hate that expression.. but in this case its true.. There was nothing to come of this. I had gotten the most ever possible out of this experience and it was time to run for my life from someone who could potentially ruin my world. Thank gawd I saw the poo before stepping in it ,, and stepped over it.. If you know what I be saying. So he didn't call.. and yesterday I sent him a message on facebook- had to since he doesn't have a phone- just basically saying.. I wished him the best of luck with his life.. and that I'm too good for him.. And ya.. that was my weekend..
WORST DATE EVA! lol
But you know.. I learned from it.. That even though somethings do happen for a reason... others don't happen for a reason.. I think there is a reason why I was kept far from this person in my teenage years.. because obviously.. he is nothing but trouble.. but.. at the end of the day I did learn something from the experience.. and I will never put myself in that kind of situation again.
C'est Effing Ca
I find these last two years have been a period in my life where I have experiences a lot of firsts.. First place on my own.. first car accident.. first worst sex experience.. first decline for a credit card.. etc etc etc.. Well this weekend my friends.. was yet another first.. and not a good one. I had by far... the worst date... of my whole life.. And I am going to tell this story in all of its truth.. I will hide nothing. At the end of it.. I take a lot of blame for it considering.. I kind of reverted back to the old Emily for 24hrs who really is too forgiving and too generous. I thought I locked this Emily in a cage at the back of my brain.. because.. she can not be trusted, she is stupid and naive and too generous etc.. She is really irritating.. I don't like her to come out. But you have to understand if you had that one crush from high school that you see years later and that person somehow breaks free.. and you have to follow through for that inner person inside yourself. Especially for me who was a hot mess in high school and didn't have a lot of boys who liked me back. So this is your preparation for this story..
So... a few weeks ago I ran into this guy in my home town that I had a huge crush on back in the day.. and
My inner Emily escaped.. for the sake of this story.. because I really don't feel like I was myself for the time I conversed with this person, I'm going to refer to my inner self as Sophie - why Sophie.. because it sounds like the sweet, naive kind of name that really suits how I feel about my inner self. NOT KNOCKING THAT NAME- just saying feels like it suits this story.
So we started talking.. Sophie and the Crush spoke for like.. 2 weeks.. Great convos.. but this person is really not someone I would usually even take a second look at. My mother... WOULD FREAK.. if I brought him this person.
1. Has 2 Kids
2. Never graduated high school
3. Has 2 bench warrants for his arrest- not one... TWO.
4. An ex baby mama of 8 yrs. with a LOT of baby mama dramz.
4. Is currently sleeping on his aunt's couch.
5. Jobless
JUST TO NAME A FEW.. but sometimes your heart sees past these kind of things.. Which is really ridiculous because you know what people.. at the end of the day.. Your Head is what has eyes attached.. not your heart... Not that I don't believe in lurveeee but.. shiz has got to make sense before you jump into something.. and obviously.. this guy.. is not making sense.. Right? right..
So.. We had been talking for 2 weeks about him coming into town this weekend and us hanging out (well he was supposed to come last weekend but couldn't come for family reasons)- so he told me that he was coming up Thursday to see his kids and that as of Friday night- I could have him all weekend. I was super excited- I prepared myself.. With delicious food.. and I looked fab etc. On Friday.. I went for a massage (delicious) at 3pm and then went to the mall to finish my Christmas Shopping.. As I'm shopping.. I'm wondering, when exactly he is going to call me since its about 5:30 at this point.. and it is funny how every person has a different definition of what "night" is- so as of Friday night he will be mine.. what is night exactly.. you know? Anyways, so I go get some Christmas cards and as I'm leaving the store.. I walk literally right into him.. FATE NO?....... NO!... It was the Devil.. I wish I never would have ran into him.. I really do..
He turned around with a big smile on his face.. and asked me what I was doing there.. making convo etc.. and he was with a friend. Then he says he has been drinking.. and shows me the beer can in his pocket.. so at this point I'm wondering.. if I had ever ran into him just now.. do you think I would have ever heard from him? Anyways..
He is there with a friend.. the brother of the Baby Mama.. and it becomes quickly evident.. that my crush wants to hang out with me.. but the friend is being a stage 5 clinger to his friend and also wants to come. So I settle figuring.. I have him for the whole weekend.. I'm sure he hasn't seen his friend in a while.. I can hang out with them both.. whatever who cares.. so then..I bring them to my place for some drinks.. Since I had bought his favourite alcohol.. argh... Damn Sophie. They drink it all and then the friend all of a sudden wants to go on a rode trip to brockville.. which I'm not really feeling.. but they say that one of their friends is having friends over or something.. so I'm like fine whatever. And he gives me gas money. As we are driving to brockville.. the friend begins to open the back door of my car as I'm going 120k and puking out the side of my car. I end up pulling over on the side of the road.. he pukes more.. and pees.. then back in the car.. and vomits again.. Amazing..
We get to brockville.. we go to some guys house that I know because he used to check me out when I would get take out from Swiss Chalet.. and his girlfriend used to go to my church. And they call over some other friend. And maybe I'm slow or something.. or again.. it was Sophie.. So naive.. but they sit down on the couch with this friend talking about something.. and I assume they are buying weed. And then start trying to come up with a $100... and I'm like..t hats pretty expensive for weed... lol And then the guy pulls out a little baggy of white powder... and honestly.. even typing this.. my arms get all stiff because.. I have a serious drug phobia.. like its bad.. and I had never seen that stuff in person before.. it was terrifying.. and the vomiting friend.. grabs the bag and runs off to the basement.. and at this moment.. I am honestly speechless and paralyzed .. my crush talks a bit more with the guy and then goes downstairs.. and I swear I opened my mouth to tell him no.. but nothing came out I was too freaked out..
I sat there.. they came back up.. blatantly tripping out.. grinding their teeth etc.. I sat there.. texting friends on my phone trying to relax and.. almost in tears.. And most people are like.. why didn't you just leave.. but I didn't leave because.. they had no way back.. I felt obligated.. stupid.. but true..They go back down.. do it again.. and then I wait until they are ready to go... and we drive back.. The whole time.. with the friend tripping his shit out in the back seat. Tried to start.. cutting up.. or whatever.. what he had left in my backseat.. I freaked out on him.. told about my drug phobia.. where they both instantly apologized like crazy.
We drive back to Ottawa.. and they ask to go by one more friends house who my crush hasn't seen in a long time.. I say fine.. Go there.. As soon as the committing friends butt hits the couch he whips out what he has left in his little baggy.. I ask him to go in the other room.. and they all go in there AGAIN and do that.. I watch everyone trip out for like an hour..not even an hour.. and the vomiting friend starts freaking out wanting more. Says he can get some in Vanier.. (The Ghetto..) and since I refuse to drive him.. leaves and goes to walk there in nothing but a t shirt in the middle of winter (and that shit wasn't close) - so my crush begs me just to go pick him up and drive him and I give in because.. of Sophie.. and because i felt bad for the guy..
I drive them to Vanier.. he tells me to wait in the car with it off... I get to 45 minutes of waiting before my toes get numb from the cold and turn my car on.. I wait for an hour and 15 minutes.. before they come back.. get in the car.. go back to the other friends house.. My crush stays with me while the other two go do more.. We finally leave.. withoutttt the vomiting friend and go to my house. Where you know what.. I let Sophie free to enjoy the boy.. Because at the end of the day.. I realized that all that really interested me ever in that person was the shell.. and.. after the night I had.. it felt good to feel safe..and intimate with someone ya know? Having someone hold you and kiss you.. after being honestly traumatized. And then the next day.. I drive him out to the friends house.. because apparently his kids were there.. again .. I was supposed to have him the whole weekend but at this point.. I didn't really care... He promised to call me the next day to go with me to a birthday party.. but I knew he wouldn't call.. I was actually praying he wouldn't.. Because it really would be like beating a dead horse.. and I hate that expression.. but in this case its true.. There was nothing to come of this. I had gotten the most ever possible out of this experience and it was time to run for my life from someone who could potentially ruin my world. Thank gawd I saw the poo before stepping in it ,, and stepped over it.. If you know what I be saying. So he didn't call.. and yesterday I sent him a message on facebook- had to since he doesn't have a phone- just basically saying.. I wished him the best of luck with his life.. and that I'm too good for him.. And ya.. that was my weekend..
WORST DATE EVA! lol
But you know.. I learned from it.. That even though somethings do happen for a reason... others don't happen for a reason.. I think there is a reason why I was kept far from this person in my teenage years.. because obviously.. he is nothing but trouble.. but.. at the end of the day I did learn something from the experience.. and I will never put myself in that kind of situation again.
C'est Effing Ca
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Poetry again lol
lost in a picture without any frame
If I am not careful, I will fall off your page
Hoping, wishing waiting,
For my acrylic prince will come alive
and save me from myself
he feels so real,
as my fingertips brush against your paint
Or maybe thats just my heart hoping so
since these rough edgess feeel nothing like skin
But I wait for magic
If only you would speak to me
I could make this picture come alive
These soft rose petals, and this white picket fence
This could be real, I could make it real
We would be happy
But you are just a picture
Not like I wish you would be
I grip to the edge of your beautiful picture
as your angelic colours slip away
you have left me
If I am not careful, I will fall off your page
Hoping, wishing waiting,
For my acrylic prince will come alive
and save me from myself
he feels so real,
as my fingertips brush against your paint
Or maybe thats just my heart hoping so
since these rough edgess feeel nothing like skin
But I wait for magic
If only you would speak to me
I could make this picture come alive
These soft rose petals, and this white picket fence
This could be real, I could make it real
We would be happy
But you are just a picture
Not like I wish you would be
I grip to the edge of your beautiful picture
as your angelic colours slip away
you have left me
Thursday, December 16, 2010
OMG... I missed Shoe-Worthy Wednesday.. FAIL!
He Is By Far.. One Of My Favs...
Get's My Engine Goin Like No Other!
Especially In Ps. I Love You.. HOLLA!
GERARD BUTLER!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Poetry Happened While Making Peanut Butter Toast...
(This is dedicated to Rebecca and Jarid..)
sometimes I think of your face in the night
the way it's tickled with soft moonlight
I wish you'd never leave my sight
cause when you're here, it feels so right
your strong arms wrapped around my waist
as we enbrace
in this place
taste your taste
...Can you believe we found eachother?
in a world so ruthless and unkind
it's so amazing that I could find
someone like you, who blows me mind
don't let it end, just press rewind
just tell me the right thing to say
on this day
so you'll lay
and just play
...You are my happiness defined.
it's cold outside, so baby stay here
I'll kiss your lips and hold you near
there is no person I hold more dear
losing you is my greatest fear
I'd devote my life to loving you
see this through
just us two
me and you
...My heart is yours forever.
sometimes I think of your face in the night
the way it's tickled with soft moonlight
I wish you'd never leave my sight
cause when you're here, it feels so right
your strong arms wrapped around my waist
as we enbrace
in this place
taste your taste
...Can you believe we found eachother?
in a world so ruthless and unkind
it's so amazing that I could find
someone like you, who blows me mind
don't let it end, just press rewind
just tell me the right thing to say
on this day
so you'll lay
and just play
...You are my happiness defined.
it's cold outside, so baby stay here
I'll kiss your lips and hold you near
there is no person I hold more dear
losing you is my greatest fear
I'd devote my life to loving you
see this through
just us two
me and you
...My heart is yours forever.
Most Amazing Random Thing..
Go to Google
Type Google Translate..
Once there.. Translate from English to French
"Take a dirty picture for me"
Once it gives you the response in French..Copy the french translation and paste it into the translate box.
Reverse the settings to "French to English" and click translate.
See what comes up. Lol.
Type Google Translate..
Once there.. Translate from English to French
"Take a dirty picture for me"
Once it gives you the response in French..Copy the french translation and paste it into the translate box.
Reverse the settings to "French to English" and click translate.
See what comes up. Lol.
Obsessed With This.
A guy I work with sent me the link to this site..
It is a site showing pictures of people usingt he worst English known to man.. I know I'm not perfect.. but whoaaaa.. I don't understand how some of these happened?!
HOURS of amusement.. Eide will love..
Here is a few of my favs.. but check out the website.
http://engrishfunny.failblog.org/
It is a site showing pictures of people usingt he worst English known to man.. I know I'm not perfect.. but whoaaaa.. I don't understand how some of these happened?!
HOURS of amusement.. Eide will love..
Here is a few of my favs.. but check out the website.
http://engrishfunny.failblog.org/
I know I know.. I'm going to Blog Hell..
I haven't posted... in like a week.. and it's horrible.. and I'm sorry...
It has been a busy week for me.. lots of changes. Shall I list them I think I shall..
Since I posted last I've
Went out dancing with some friends got hit on a lot? Apparently I had something working for me that night that does not continue into the regular hours of the day..
Gotten ditched for a date on Sunday.. went to 3 different blockbusters trying to find this persons favourite movie.. upsetting.. upsetting... I do too much too soon.. whomp whomp
Started my new job... new manager.. new team mates.. umm.. Haven't decided my official feeling on it yet.. this team is obviously a lot more tenured.. and its more money..meh.. jury is still out. I really liked my old manager :(
Found out I didn't actually get ditched, it was a valid reason why the person didn't come.. and I suddenly felt silly for getting so upset.
Spent 45 minutes in line at Toys R Us.. 45!!!! Getting my niece's X-mas present.. But shes worth every second.. Winter Belle Costume.. ADORABLE!
Went grocery shopping.. spent $230!!!! Most I've spent in a while..
Got shot down for a date with Captain Custard.. I TRIED PEOPLE! I TRIED! Apparently dating someone at work is too taboo- OR .. I'm not his type.. but lets face it.. I'm pretty awesome.. so I'll stick with the first one.
Won a draw.. got a free harley davidson hat!? Exciting?? No? Damn it
Came up with a great idea today at work, got a thank you from the boss man .. which was much needed and very nice. And reminded me of how truly brilliant I am :P
GOT A CHECK FOR A HUNDRED DOLLARS FROM THE GOOD OLD GOVERNMENT! Merry friggin x-mas to me.. :) Means I get to buy a few more presents for the special people in my life :)
I bought a new towel! The size of a blanket, it is delicious... Nothing like a towel that covers your whole body out of the shower.. if only I had one of the fancy towel heaters.. to heat my giant towel for when I come out of the shower.. then my life would be complete.
Had my first evening.. avec... SUSAN (if you haven't read my previous posts.. I'm not crazy.. but my strainer is named Susan.).. she strained like it was her job... her luscious orange handle glowed with delight in my hand.. "Thank you Emily... Thank you for taking me away from those owners who couldn't spell and smelt like cheese and never used me to my full potential! Because of that.. I will remove the water from this delicious linguine for you.. Better than I have ever done before!" .. ok I got carried away.. but don't act like you didn't enjoy it.
So as you can see.. this bitch be busy..
I'm gonna post some fun stuff.. but I really have to go back to work...
THERE IS EYES EVERYWHERE!
C'est Ca.
It has been a busy week for me.. lots of changes. Shall I list them I think I shall..
Since I posted last I've
Went out dancing with some friends got hit on a lot? Apparently I had something working for me that night that does not continue into the regular hours of the day..
Gotten ditched for a date on Sunday.. went to 3 different blockbusters trying to find this persons favourite movie.. upsetting.. upsetting... I do too much too soon.. whomp whomp
Started my new job... new manager.. new team mates.. umm.. Haven't decided my official feeling on it yet.. this team is obviously a lot more tenured.. and its more money..meh.. jury is still out. I really liked my old manager :(
Found out I didn't actually get ditched, it was a valid reason why the person didn't come.. and I suddenly felt silly for getting so upset.
Spent 45 minutes in line at Toys R Us.. 45!!!! Getting my niece's X-mas present.. But shes worth every second.. Winter Belle Costume.. ADORABLE!
Went grocery shopping.. spent $230!!!! Most I've spent in a while..
Got shot down for a date with Captain Custard.. I TRIED PEOPLE! I TRIED! Apparently dating someone at work is too taboo- OR .. I'm not his type.. but lets face it.. I'm pretty awesome.. so I'll stick with the first one.
Won a draw.. got a free harley davidson hat!? Exciting?? No? Damn it
Came up with a great idea today at work, got a thank you from the boss man .. which was much needed and very nice. And reminded me of how truly brilliant I am :P
GOT A CHECK FOR A HUNDRED DOLLARS FROM THE GOOD OLD GOVERNMENT! Merry friggin x-mas to me.. :) Means I get to buy a few more presents for the special people in my life :)
I bought a new towel! The size of a blanket, it is delicious... Nothing like a towel that covers your whole body out of the shower.. if only I had one of the fancy towel heaters.. to heat my giant towel for when I come out of the shower.. then my life would be complete.
Had my first evening.. avec... SUSAN (if you haven't read my previous posts.. I'm not crazy.. but my strainer is named Susan.).. she strained like it was her job... her luscious orange handle glowed with delight in my hand.. "Thank you Emily... Thank you for taking me away from those owners who couldn't spell and smelt like cheese and never used me to my full potential! Because of that.. I will remove the water from this delicious linguine for you.. Better than I have ever done before!" .. ok I got carried away.. but don't act like you didn't enjoy it.
So as you can see.. this bitch be busy..
I'm gonna post some fun stuff.. but I really have to go back to work...
THERE IS EYES EVERYWHERE!
C'est Ca.
Friday, December 10, 2010
Poetry on the brain...
you look at me
like you see right through
the mask I wear
like you love my core
I know one touch
would change my whole world
I dream of it
I want to change yours
somethings magic about you
watch my heart take flight
waterfalls in slow motion
and maps with no oceans
each moment plays over
you noticing that im there
your eyes lit up
just as they met mine
like you see me
see my life as a book
that you had read
and loved every single word
I am your book
to lay in your arms
you read my every wish
hidden in my hopeless pages
I wouldn't hide myself
Id let you see it all
and maybe in return
I could soon read yours
your soul so deep
surrounds and soothes my despair
I could fall here
I could fall here forever
like you see right through
the mask I wear
like you love my core
I know one touch
would change my whole world
I dream of it
I want to change yours
somethings magic about you
watch my heart take flight
waterfalls in slow motion
and maps with no oceans
each moment plays over
you noticing that im there
your eyes lit up
just as they met mine
like you see me
see my life as a book
that you had read
and loved every single word
I am your book
to lay in your arms
you read my every wish
hidden in my hopeless pages
I wouldn't hide myself
Id let you see it all
and maybe in return
I could soon read yours
your soul so deep
surrounds and soothes my despair
I could fall here
I could fall here forever
Thursday, December 9, 2010
A Little... More Poetry For You.
Those blue eyes
That I despise
They haunt me to the core
You walk by
I say hi
It's the same thing everyday
You walk by
I say bye
It's the same thing everyday
You are aware
You don't care
That I have this stupid crush
You always smile
I dream awhile
But nothing between us changes
You hurt me
Can't you see
By merely saying nothing at all
You are amazing
I keep gazing
But I watch each moment pass
You keep distance
From my persistance
Now I look like a crazy person
You just laugh
On my behalf
Why do I even like you!? ARGH
C'est Ca.- Can you tell I ended the day in a crappy mood? lol
That I despise
They haunt me to the core
You walk by
I say hi
It's the same thing everyday
You walk by
I say bye
It's the same thing everyday
You are aware
You don't care
That I have this stupid crush
You always smile
I dream awhile
But nothing between us changes
You hurt me
Can't you see
By merely saying nothing at all
You are amazing
I keep gazing
But I watch each moment pass
You keep distance
From my persistance
Now I look like a crazy person
You just laugh
On my behalf
Why do I even like you!? ARGH
C'est Ca.- Can you tell I ended the day in a crappy mood? lol
Like A Map With No Ocean
Why is it that we choose to like the people we like?
Especially the ones you don't want to like...but somehow they seem to captivate you? Why do we put ourselves out there? All exposed with our feelings across our foreheads and our hearts on our sleeves ..nothing but the best intentions and expecting nothing but the best out of people. Expecting the person who gets to see your feelings and your heart won't turn out to point and laugh at you or.. take your heart and rip it to shreds... When I say we.. I mean me of course. Why do I do this..? Why do I expect every person to be nice? I really wish I was a person that wasn't so sensitive. That didn't care as much as I choose to care for people. Or do things for people that give me absolutely nothing in return. I just feel like it is not the type of person I am.. I tend to be really picky.so..If I like someone.. I put myself right out there as soon as possible.. here are my cards.. this is me.. do you like me or not?.. if not then oh well (whomp whomppp).. if yes then awesome.. let's rock and roll. But with this.. you get those people that choose to leave you in limbo. They avoid giving you an answer. I haven't really figured out why this is? Maybe.. for their own amusement.. maybe.. its an ego boost... to keep someone on the back burner for a day where you might need a compliment or something... sheer cruelty.. just being cautious maybe... maybe too fearful to hurt some one's feelings by telling me no... Either way.. They all pretty much suck. I like to think I have never done this to a person. And if I have.. after feeling what this feels like I will never do it again. I feel so exposed..like I'm standing in a room naked with one person standing behind a one way mirror so I can't see them but they can see me. And I can't see their reaction. Its just embarrassing.. and frustrating.. and humiliating .. and annoying.. to wait and wonder. Spare me the fluff.. I just want to know.. ya know? I'm not looking to marry anyone here.. but like, I'd like to know whether or not someone likes me even a little bit.. so much to ask? Instead I feel like a little play thing.. like the toy you squeeze whenever you are bored just to hear it say "I love you!" or "You are awesome!" ETC..And it sucks because.. I think I'm a pretty awesome person with a lot to offer.. but at the same time.. my heart is made out of paper mache or something.. just a little flick makes me super sad sometimes... And when someone leaves you in this limbo from hell.. its hard not to feel like crap a bit.. Anyways.. had to rant.. get that out..
Especially the ones you don't want to like...but somehow they seem to captivate you? Why do we put ourselves out there? All exposed with our feelings across our foreheads and our hearts on our sleeves ..nothing but the best intentions and expecting nothing but the best out of people. Expecting the person who gets to see your feelings and your heart won't turn out to point and laugh at you or.. take your heart and rip it to shreds... When I say we.. I mean me of course. Why do I do this..? Why do I expect every person to be nice? I really wish I was a person that wasn't so sensitive. That didn't care as much as I choose to care for people. Or do things for people that give me absolutely nothing in return. I just feel like it is not the type of person I am.. I tend to be really picky.so..If I like someone.. I put myself right out there as soon as possible.. here are my cards.. this is me.. do you like me or not?.. if not then oh well (whomp whomppp).. if yes then awesome.. let's rock and roll. But with this.. you get those people that choose to leave you in limbo. They avoid giving you an answer. I haven't really figured out why this is? Maybe.. for their own amusement.. maybe.. its an ego boost... to keep someone on the back burner for a day where you might need a compliment or something... sheer cruelty.. just being cautious maybe... maybe too fearful to hurt some one's feelings by telling me no... Either way.. They all pretty much suck. I like to think I have never done this to a person. And if I have.. after feeling what this feels like I will never do it again. I feel so exposed..like I'm standing in a room naked with one person standing behind a one way mirror so I can't see them but they can see me. And I can't see their reaction. Its just embarrassing.. and frustrating.. and humiliating .. and annoying.. to wait and wonder. Spare me the fluff.. I just want to know.. ya know? I'm not looking to marry anyone here.. but like, I'd like to know whether or not someone likes me even a little bit.. so much to ask? Instead I feel like a little play thing.. like the toy you squeeze whenever you are bored just to hear it say "I love you!" or "You are awesome!" ETC..And it sucks because.. I think I'm a pretty awesome person with a lot to offer.. but at the same time.. my heart is made out of paper mache or something.. just a little flick makes me super sad sometimes... And when someone leaves you in this limbo from hell.. its hard not to feel like crap a bit.. Anyways.. had to rant.. get that out..
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
SHOE-WORTHY WEDNESDAY!
Ok Ladies.. Time for a little pick me up..
I know he is old school. But he has some swag that will last forever.
Sexy Sexy Man...
JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
I Finally Can Relate To These Lyrics..
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Because I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Because sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Because I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Because I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Because I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Because sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Because I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Because I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I know it's not Wednesday...
But.. you are welcome.. :)
"If you're a bird, I'm a bird."
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
For Those Of You That Are Interested...
I'M GOING! Please come and show your support!
We would like to ask you to Save-The-Date and formally invite you to our 6th Annual Gala, on the evening of April 13th, 2011.
This is a free, accessible event. Taking place on the International Day of Pink, a day calling of action celebrating diversity and calling to an end to bullying.
This is a free, accessible event. Taking place on the International Day of Pink, a day calling of action celebrating diversity and calling to an end to bullying.
In addition to great appetizer, performances, and surprises, the Jer’s Vision’s Gala will honour those who have done exceptional work to address discrimination and promote diversity with the Youth Role Model of the Year Award.
This year’s recipients include Stephan Lewis for his work internationally on HIV/AIDS, and Dutch Ambassador Wim Geerts, who will accept the award on behalf of the
This year’s recipients include Stephan Lewis for his work internationally on HIV/AIDS, and Dutch Ambassador Wim Geerts, who will accept the award on behalf of the
Netherlands as a celebration for the 10th anniversary of legalized same-sex marriage in the Netherlands.
RSVP to gala@jersvision.org
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Monday, December 6, 2010
Coming home..To Susan
Had to share this....
So tonight I get home to my apartment.. First of all.. I walk in.. and the whole building smells like a fart bomb... at first thought maybe I had gotten a visit from my childhood prankster friend Jamiee.. but no.. just...people cooking I guess? I don't know.. but it is nasty out there.
And then I see there is some kind of something in the corner in the downstairs lobby.. which isn't usually get there. As I get closer... I see it is an orange strainer... maybe it's red.. whatever doesn't really apply to this story... Anyways.. I happen to need an effing strainer?! SCORE!?
So I bend down to pick it up.. and I see there is a note inside saying .. and I quote "- FREE- MEERY CHRITM" Now... should I be concerned? I'm not going to lie.. the previous purpose was not at all a concern to me until I read that little note? At least they knew how to spell free right? As long as my new strainer.. which I am naming Susan btw..(I'm not actually naming it that.. come on now) was not used for some kind of.... kitty torture..or... replacement toilet... I'm not really concerned... But you know what? That is a risk I am willing to take... Nothing in life is free... PFT check this out bitches?! Doesn't come more free than this.. Now excuse me.. Susan and I are now going to go make pasta.. C'est Ca :)
So tonight I get home to my apartment.. First of all.. I walk in.. and the whole building smells like a fart bomb... at first thought maybe I had gotten a visit from my childhood prankster friend Jamiee.. but no.. just...people cooking I guess? I don't know.. but it is nasty out there.
And then I see there is some kind of something in the corner in the downstairs lobby.. which isn't usually get there. As I get closer... I see it is an orange strainer... maybe it's red.. whatever doesn't really apply to this story... Anyways.. I happen to need an effing strainer?! SCORE!?
So I bend down to pick it up.. and I see there is a note inside saying .. and I quote "- FREE- MEERY CHRITM" Now... should I be concerned? I'm not going to lie.. the previous purpose was not at all a concern to me until I read that little note? At least they knew how to spell free right? As long as my new strainer.. which I am naming Susan btw..(I'm not actually naming it that.. come on now) was not used for some kind of.... kitty torture..or... replacement toilet... I'm not really concerned... But you know what? That is a risk I am willing to take... Nothing in life is free... PFT check this out bitches?! Doesn't come more free than this.. Now excuse me.. Susan and I are now going to go make pasta.. C'est Ca :)
A Little Poetry For You.
The mood struck me.. and things happened :)
ENJOY! Let me know what you think!
Your Beautiful Face
Your lines, Your lace
They take me away to a place
I wish to never return from.
Your Telling Eyes
Your thoughts, Your lies
I watch you listen to my cries
But you act like you don't hear me
Your Glowing Skin
You hurt, You sin
And yet, my heart you win
It pains me to admit this.
Your Sweet Lips
Your hands, Your hips
My fragile heart, it skips
In hopes you might be mine
Your Tender Touch
Your fingers, And such.
To you, I'll never mean much.
But I choose to be a dreamer.
By MOI
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