UPDATE

As soon as I wrote the title of this post.. I thought to myself.. does it really deserve cap locks? I don't believe it does, it isn't nearly that exciting- however.. Imma leave it.. causeeeee I'm lazy..

So this past weekend i went to the states to see my sister for her Birthday.. Yes, I bless her with my presence on her birthday.. but only her birthday.. JK! I go when I can.. when I'm not broke.. whomp whomp.

I had an awesome time with her.. honestly.. I'm so thankful that we have become so closer- nothing compares to a sister friend.. our friendship can never break- no matter what?! It's really safe feeling. I love it.
Anyways.. enough of the mushy stuff..
A few other things happened...

• I GOT MY EARS PIERCED - I got them pierced when I was 16 but they got infected so I left them fill in- but I got them repierced- SO EXCITED.
• I went tot he gym with my sister for the first time in a long time.. went well I think :) Felt a lot more confident about goign than I have in the past.
• So my ex.. stayed over in a hotel with him... DID NOT HAVE SEX! ONLY KISSED HIM!!!! Impressed? I know.. I'M STICKING TO Y SEX WITHDRAWELPEOPLE. Do not mess with me.
• Umm.. had my mom be rude yet again about me excersising.. story of my life.. whatever.. OVER IT.
• Spent some wonderful time with my niece.. saw her throw a few tantrums... that shiz.. is intense..
• Went out for my sister's bday- met her friends- danced the night away- she didn't like the necklace I got her..WHOMP WHOMP- but loved the spa package so I'M GOOD.
• Urmmm.. Came home last night.. made my lunch and went to the gymt his morning.. BOOYAH.
• ALSO- ordered a digital scale today and some dumbells with the free point things I get from my work :) This are coming together
• ALSO- talked to my friend Niki about potentially moving this fall out west for school? POTENTIAL
• ALSO- found out that the yearly bonus from my work is going to be enough for me to pay off my line of credit- not a huge enough- but enough for me to free up 120 dollars that I have to pay towards that monthly... I'm super excited about this.. :)

So ya.. those are pretty much all my updates.. It is amazing how much going to the gym before work improves my day. I feel so much more full of energy and the day goes by so much faster? Wierd I know..
I promise to write more tomorrow.. IXO
C'est CA!



Microwave Etiquette ...

Had to share the most awkward thing that hapopened to me this morning..
So I go downstairs on my break.. and there are 6 microwaves downstairs to warm up my food in.
I see one is free so I put my food in.. and here the bottons are pre-set so - I pushed 9- which set my food to cook for 4 minutes.
I go to the cafe to grab a tea real quick - which litterally took me a minute- and then went back to my food.
I open the microwave because i knew it woud be done- and find someone elses food there..
The girl behind me goes - "Ya that is mine, I put your food over there"
And I see my tupperware over on the counter... confused.. I pick it up and go to the elevators and realize my tupperware is luke warm.. like almost cold.
Then I realize.. she not only.. took my food out... but took it out before the timer had stopped to put her food in?
Random.. Rude.. and Wierd...so I had to go abck and heat my food again...

THOUGHTS?!



SHOE-WORTHY WEDNESDAY!!!

I noticed today, my serious lack of.. FLAVA.. on my editions of shoe worthy wednesdays.. And when I say FLAVA- I mean specifically of the chocolate variety.
To make up for this oversight- I'm doing a double edition of Shoe-Worthy Wednesday.. 2 MEN.. Twice the hotness!? Can you handle it ladies?!?! We shall see..
Now.. not always my cup of tea.. The chocolate that is.. these men.. ARE HOT...
TAKE MY SHOE.. TAKE IT DAMN IT..
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH YESSSSSSSSSS...
I'M TALKING ABOUT...

RICKY WHITTLE!

AND

SHEMAR MOORE!

(you are welcome ladies.. you are mutha effing welcome)





A kiss won't take us anywhere, just leave us something to taste.

You like that title? It really has nothing to do with what I want to post about, it was just a good lyric I heard today.. I enjoy it because it is probably true about a lot of the men I've rolled back to.. Yes.. Rolled.. not walked.. Because walking you can control your speed etc.. I think you more roll back into relationships because, sometimes you can't control how fast it happens, and because you can't really see clearly where you are headed until you are there.. and even when you reach there.. you are dizzy and confused... Maybe this makes no sense to you people.. BUT DAMN IT, IT DOES TO ME!

So what has happened recently in my life..

Well.. first of all .. it is with great happiness I announce that humming girl.. that make my skin crawl with irritation.. ya.. SHE BE GONE BITCHES.. Don't know where.. don't know how.. ok maybe I do.. but I can't say.. but all that really matters, is that I no longer need to listen to her endless music stylings.
THANK YOU GOD.

Also, so last night, I had a random guy contact me that I very briefly dated when I first moved up to Ottawa... Now here is the thing.. I dated him like.. over 5 years ago.. and.. it is really annoying but I honestly barely remember anything about him.
Here is what I DO remember...
Like, I remember what he looks like.. I remember how we met.. we met on a bus.. we smiled at each other on the bus when I was with Rebecca I think.. and thennnn he came up to me once we were off the bus and asked me for my number.. Cute.. I know.
Umm.. I also remember going to his family's house for something? Trying some delicious homemade wine.. having Rebecca and her friend Jordan come there.. and smoking a joint in the basement with an uncle of his or something? Random.. 
I remember staying over at his house one night with Rebecca? And... I somehow clogged his toilet? and got super paranoid about it and Rebecca and I went on a random hunt for a plunger at a convenience store.. and left it at his house all awkwardly.. Like.. Whoa.. how did that get there? (as I'm telling these things btw, I know I'm taking Eide down a serious memory lane.. I'm aware.. and the thought of her face reading this.. jaw slightly dropping like "oh ya?!"- makes me smile)

I remember he took like my first naughty picture of myself in a fake military dress..lol Please gawd, make that photo cease to exist.

Then after that.. everything goes really foggy..

I don't remember why I stopped talking to him.. BUT.. I feel like it was due to something bad... and that scares me.. but I honestly can't remember.. I THINK.. it was due to him being pervy? I have a slight recollection of going to his house one night.. not wanting to mess around with him.. and him putting his hand on my knee.. but I remember nothing of how it ended.. I just remember being on the street waiting for a bus stop.. But it's like the memory is in my head.. and that part of it.. makes me feel a bit sick to my stomach?
So .. I don't think it was a good reason.

WITH ALL THAT BEING SAID...
It was 5 years ago.. who knows how a person could change- but after my experience with crazy man last summer- I'm trying to be extra cautious.. yes that's a whole other story btw..

So he calls me last night.. and the whole time he is talking.. I'm trying so hard to remember what happened that night.. I kid you not.. he must have asked me to go over to his place.. 50 times.. each time me following with a "no, sorry tonight is not a good night for me." He went beyond begging.. Like it actually started to get irritating/ creepy. Like why do you want to hang out with me so bad weirdo? OBVIOUSLY.. I'm awesome... I'm aware. But.. doesn't that seem weird to you.. to excessively ask me? The convo ended with him saying, "ok I'm going to take a shower just in case you do choose to come over, and call you when I'm out and hopefully you are on your way"- and this was after saying no FOR AN HOUR AND FIFTEEN MINUTES - (I know because I just checked my phone, I don't time my phone convos  don't worry lol.)
I had to end it with a text being like.. sorry I really can't make it tonight, rain check tho, have a goodnight.

I'm feeling really overwhelmed by him.. like CHILL THE EFF OUT?! I'm not looking to roll back into whatever I had with him.. I got more fabulous over the last 5 years since I met you.. I matured.. and became stronger and more confident and sassy- from all I can see.. he had a kid, got a job at the beer store..learnt how to sound crazy desperate.. and a hair dye job. That's really mean.. BUT IT'S TRUE?!  If I was going to roll back into anything it would be with Peter.. and that's not even a possibility until he comes back from deployment next March. SO ya.. And besides.. I've sworn off men til April.. WHICH I'm still sticking to..

So ya that was my life the last 48 hours. I think I'm just going to let him down gently- but I wanted to tell you lovely people so you could rate the craziness level of that from 1-10? Like, is it just me that thinks that is a 10?!

C'est Ca-
PS... look forward to Shoe-Worthy Wednesday... :)
PPS- Maybe my title does make sense for my post? Hm.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY!?

To one of my favourite women in the whole world..

You are going to make such an amazing Mom Jamiee K.. I can tell because you are such a wonderful friend.. I wouldn't trade you for the world.

Love you with all my Heart :)



Happy Monday.

So I have a few minutes today, so I thought I would blog it up real quick.. I slacked over the weekend but I did have a lot of stuff to do.

I did go to the gym on friday and again this morning.. which wasn't easy.. the mental conversation that takes place every morning when my alarm goes off.
Me-
As if it's time to get up already
Feels like I haven't slept at all
And it's so warm
But, no I really should get up..
But Peso is comfy.. I love snuggling with him.. I should stay.. just go on my lunch..
But it's so much better to work out first thing in thr morning
EMILY GET UP...
But it's so cozy..
Wait a minute.. I'm starting to wake up a bit from all this thinking..
But I could easily fall back asleep if I wanted to..
Etc Etc Etc..

I honestly fight myself tooth and nail to get up.. lol But I made it.. and it went well.. made it up to a half hour in cardio... which is a first.. felt good.. and I do find by the time I start work.. I feel a lot less tired..
I'm really excited.. I feel like I'm making good progress.. I still have a few habits to break.. but for tghe most part.. I'm proud of how much I stuck with it so far :)

What else.. OH
Found out my mother got engaged this past weekend...
My feelings...
Ummm...
I'm really unsure of my feelings to be honest..
He seems like a nice person.. and it seems as though their love is genuine..
But they met in SEPTEMBER?!
Part of me wants to be like.. Emily..this should just re-enforce your belief in love at first sigh..
And the other half is like.. Emily.. this man.. is scamming your mother.. and she could potentially lose everything.
My mom has a tendency of being a stage 5 clinger ok..t hankfull she only past on like 3 of those stages to me.. I'm not quite a five.. And it's like.. she dated 5 guys in a row .. got her heart broken each time.. then as soon as she found someone who reciprocated her love.. she clung on for dear life?!
And my mom is fabulous.. she doesn't have to cling?!
So within a month... This new man.. quit his job and moved in with my mother.. and somehow this man who doesn't even have enough money to take me, my sister and mother out for dinner.. has found the money to start up his own renovation business and buy my mom a diamond ring?  He is still married.. separated for 4 years... because he said he never had the money for a divorce.. but NOW.. is getting a divorce..SOMEHOW.. He has 3 kids- none of which speak to him.. why? NO ONE KNOWS.  And also has now convinced my mom to put her house up for sale in hopes of purchasing a home with 6 acres of property.. My mother... 6 ACRES? She hates to even do simple gardeing.. let alone take care of a property.
Just went to Mexico with my mom.. Who do you think paid for that? My Mom..
To start up New business? My mom
Divorce? Probably my mom.
Dental work he just got? Probably my mom..
Ring? Wouldn't surprise me if it was my mom.
And now.. they are getting married.. and he will get HALF of everything my mom has worked for...
Doesn't this all sound so effing promising?
Not exactly..

Oh... Emily.. talk to your mother? Is that what I heard you say.
SHE WON''T LISTEN?!

Anyways.. now you are up to date... and I'm out of time..Welcome to my life.. C'est effing Ca.



Annoucement....

I'm Pregnant..

JK!

lol

Just wanted to let everyone know that I lost 3 pounds this week.. feelings super proud of myself :)

I Am A Creeper..

Jamiee.. you wanted an example here it it...

I sent this email to a guy at my work I have a crush on today... so far no response :$
The suspence is killing me...
But at the end of the day.. There's Nothing Not To Love About Me... so if not.. HIS LOSS?!

SHOE- WORTHY WEDNESDAY!

Ok, so I have to be honest... I feel like he is kind of a butter face sometimes.. I know... BLASPHEMY?!
But I'm sure.. if he was infront of me I wouldn't kick him out of bed for eating crackers if ya know what I be sayin.. Because... At the end of the day.. he is fine.. The whole package.. equals fine... I just think he is mousy looking sometimes? But I seem to be the only one...

RYAN REYNOLDS!



To My Friends...

Today I woke up this morning feeling just an overwhelming feeling of happiness.. And a lot of it has to be attributed to the people who are there for me on a daily- weekly- monthly basis. I am so thankful for the friendships I have been blessed with throughout my life.. I feel like I can't say it enough how happy you are make me. Going through high school, it really never felt like I had people who were there for me.. and I was sad all the time.. never felt good about myself. But things are changing.. and a lot of the reason for that is because I have such special friends in my life now. I love each and every one of you and hope that we can remain friends for a very long time. I feel privileged to be a part of each of your lives... I promise each of you after all that you have done for me.. that I will be there through the ups and downs.. whatever you need me for... because each of you are truly a blessing to me. XO

Helen Boles Salling- I know you are my sister... But beyond that you are the most best of friends I could have ever asked for. If someone would have told me when I was younger that we would have ended up being such close friends, I would have never believed them... but here we are. You are such a beautiful person in and out. My twin soul. We don't always see eye to eye on everything but.. my love for you would with stand any test or obstacle. There is no love like a sister's love. Being held by my older sister when I'm crying.. is unlike any feeling I have ever felt. I know that you love me unconditionally and would protect me from anything you were able to.  God truly blessed me when he gave me you. I love you so much.

Rebecca Eide- What can I say about my Eide.. You are so beautifully complicated. Like the most beautiful mosaic masterpiece. You just radiate with such ambition and love. Thinking about how we met... how we went from being merely acquaintances... to inseparable.. I have no idea.. but I would have it no other way. There is no person in the whole world who would ever be able to fill the place in my heart that you inhabit. And I don't think there is anyone who could do the same for you? There are just things about myself that are lacking that you fulfill and vise versa. You truly complete me. I can honestly remember every time you have ever cried in front of me.. not only because you are very strong and rarely cry.. but because when you cry.. I swear I feel every tear.. every heart break.. My soul is bound to yours forever. My bosom friend. I love you so much.

Gisele Hudon- You are a new friend to me, but you are such an amazing person. You are so warm and you opened your home, family and life to me in such an unexpected, amazing way. I don't think there is one moment with you where I am not smiling and laughing.. you truly have become my new happy place. You are quirky..lol and are my strange little Geezy at times, but I love you for every moment. Because if you were to take away any of your quirks.. you wouldn't be the wonderful Geezy that you are. You are such a big source of love, encouragement and support as you have been.  I am so very thankful that I can be a part of your life and be a witness to the remarkable person you are.You are so beautiful inside and out.. It is a very lucky man that gets you for life.. I love you and your family so much Geezy. Xo

Niki Stearns- My Niki Boo... Since Grade 4... and we are still kickin. There aren't many people in life that you can go for so long without hanging out and then see each other and it's like no time has passed.. and I have that with you. The minute I pick you up from your place and I see your little face with a big grin come through the doors of your building, it honestly brightens up my whole world. You are like a walking ray of sunshine. Everyone loves you. But I have to say, I think I love you on a whole other level. Not a creepy level.. but just that.. I think about you a lot.. how you are doing.. And just genuinely miss you.. and it pains me a bit to miss you. You have been in my life since Grade 4... and it still isn't enough. I hope to be there to witness what you do with your life. I hope you keep me around. My love for you is completely unconditional and I couldn't of asked for a better friend to go through the last..14 years with? You have brought so much value to my life. I love you so much Niki Boo.

Leesa Hudson- Leesa, we have been friends a long time, with a big gap in the middle. But I am happy we have overcome it. It was a really happy day for me to have you back in my life at Jamiee's Birthday party. It instantly felt like no time had past. It felt so good to have you back in my life. You were my other half in high school and I missed..us? You aren't always the first to expose the more fragile part of yourself, but I am so thankful that you have let me in... and let me love you for the beautiful person you are. Obviously, on the outside you are drop dead friggin gorgeoussss... but on the inside you, you seen to give everyone the benefit of the doubt. I find your drive to achieve your dreams truly inspiring. I have so much fun with you when we are together. It's like we think the same way.. it is amazing. Thank you so much for coming back into my life and letting me love you for the wonderful, generous, loving, gracious person you have become. I love you so much xo.

Jamiee Kirkham- My Little Jamiee K... Thank you for being there for me to talk to and putting up with my craziness.. You said to be that I could talk to you upset or normal and that you didn't care you would be there for me anyways even if I was a bit sassy towards you.. That you understood. lol Not very many people would do that for someone.. You do that for me.. That takes a special kind of person. You are so a warm , loving, nurturing person. And on top of all of that, you make me feel like I am a lot funnier than I think I actually am lol! You laugh at all my jokes even the stupid ones. lol You also are someone, after knowing each other for so long, I didn't think I would be so close with? Just because we weren't close for a while I guess. But I am so thankful you came back into my life. I wouldn't trade one smile or laugh. I couldn't have a life without my Jamiee K.. I love you so much.

Chantal Gray- You are a new friend to me.. but you are such a great person. We have had our rough patches but we rise above because we just love each other. :) And I wouldn't have it any other way. I love being there for you and will continue to be as long as you need me to be. You are such a beautiful person.. yes you are a bit sassy, but I'm sassy?! I love your sass.. You are a bit younger than me.. but you have a self confidence..and knowledge of who you are... that I was not even close to having at your age. When I started at Dooly's you were first to accept me, and take me under your wing and show me the ropes. And you did it in such a caring, generous way. I love bitching about men with you and just listening to you tell me about your life. I hope to be there for so much more of it. I love you so much.

JJ Abajobir- My JJ, I haven't seen you in a while, but it doesn't change how much I love you girllll. You are a bit stubborn at times.. we know.. we have discussed..lol But again, it just makes you even more beautiful because it is a part of who you are. I feel so safe with I'm with you. I know that no matter the situation that goes down, that my JJ will be there for me. You are always a source of love, support and advice whenever I need you. I want to do the same for you. You are so wise beyond your years and I am really excited to see what you do with all the knowledge and ambition you have. Thank you for being there for me through the good times and the bad and I hope that I can see you soon because I miss having my JJ love... ? It has been a while since you have dressed up for me??? I love you so much.

Thank you all for loving me... Flaws and All.



SHOE-WORTHY WEDNESDAY!

This Shoe Worthy Wednesday is one of the hottest yet... and I dedicate it to my bestie Rebecca Eide.. BECAUSE.. if it weren't for her.. I wouldn't even know his name?! I know?! Blasphemy..
This man is all kinds of  hot... He makes me want to work out in the dirtiest of ways...
As long as he is the machine I'm workin out on.. If ya know what I be sayinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...
Introducing the yummy delicious..blood sucking...

KELLAN LUTZ!